December 18, 2007 1.5 lb or 3.5 lbs...you decide!

Had my appointment with the clinic this morning. On my scale I think it was 257 (not digital). So that would have left me with a 1.5 loss from 258.5. I got on the clinic scale and it also showed 257 , but they deduct 2 lbs for clothes. So they have me down for 255. So I think a poll should be done. Should I take the 255 and count the 2 extra pounds? LOL Jonesing for some extra lbs here! LOL

They couldn't think if they had any other diabetics on the Releana. They had a couple on the optifast diet....YUCK! And I got the talk again about not weighing so much, if not seeing the scale move every morning gets depressing. They have a few that really freak out with the scale, so they only weigh in there. I don't think I could go 2 weeks without weighing. Got my lipo fat reducing shot. It is a B12 shot mixed with some fat releasing herbs and/or amino acids in it. I will have to look for that paperwork and see what the other ingredients are. I asked about the reason why they have us use 5-6 oz of protein per meal and not the 3.5 oz. They were having problems when they first started with patients not feeling well, being dizzy and weak, etc. So they called up Releana and they adviced to increase. Said they were having some of the same issues and advised their patients to increase and it didn't seem to effect the weight loss. Now I don't know how scientific the decision was to come up with this reasoning. But I am still losing, so I think I will stay on the 5 oz of protein. And when measuring on a scale, it is only two more extra bites.

So what have I learned here? That if I stick with the plan, the weight has to come off. Might not come off when I want it, but it will come off. Do I have to like it that I don't have nice smooth weight losses like some people? No I don't, but I have to accept it. And accepting it is not settling. Just have to take it as it is. This is how my body is working right now. My body has shown a pattern during both cycles of P2. So if I start to whimper and throw another temper tantrum in R3, you all have my permission to REMIND me that I have been down this road before. I will make it past all the detours and bumps in the road and get to my destination. Deal?

When I look in the mirror I still see this big round gut. But I do notice the other parts of my body that has slimmed down. I can now scratch the middle of my back..matter of fact, all over it! Haven't been able to do that in awhile. And when I am bending over in a chair, my tummy is not so much in the way now. I am getting my lap back. Haven't seen that in ages! I have been losing in all areas, but seems my gut has a ways to go. If I could figure out how to post the pictures, I would. I am going to have to work on that one. But I think my losing of fat is going on a cycle of LILO (cost accounting terms) Last in, last out! When I am down to goal, my measurements will probably be 38-36-38. Right now it is 50-56-55. Can you say APPLE! And then I noticed on Biz's measurements, my thighs are an inch smaller than her last measurement. So can you now say APPLE on a stick! LOL But all that to say this, I went to get my hair cut tonight. I just started this diet when I got my last haircut. My stylist, David, told me he almost didn't recognize me. I had to go to the bathroom when I got there and he was working on another client. He said he saw a woman go to the bathroom, then it hit him that it was me. So that boosted my ego a bit! Woohoo!!!! So one day soon, I will look in the mirror and notice my gut isn't so big! It will come and I look forward to that day!

Thanks everyone for your comments, they mean so much to me!

Be Blessed!

Tracey

December 17, 2007 2 LBS GONE!

Well Well Well...what the heck is going on! Don't understand it for the life of me. Can go a whole week and not budge much and then whamo, 2 lbs fall off. Will be interesting to see what tomorrow brings.

I am feeling good, energy wise and my blood sugars are staying stable. I go to the clinic in the morning for a weigh in and will talk to them about this. Will see if they are seeing any other patients with this kind of pattern. Or if they have any other diabetics on their roll call and how they are doing. Oh, Biz I will not forget to ask about the extra protein they have me eating.

I am get a newsletter from Dr. Joe Pendergast and he had a video talking about Insulin Resistance and Oxidative Stress. I guess a new paper came out on that, so I want to find it and see what that has to say. I thought losing 25 lbs would help that, but so far it hasn't. My body is stubborn! I keep telling it that it is not going to win! I need to get back in the research mode.

Had one of the older ladies in the office come up to me today and whisper in my ear do keep doing whatever I was doing cuz she can really tell it in my face! She was so sweet!

Biz - I will send you an email tomorrow after I meet with the clinic. Let you know what they
say.

Amy - I think my other hormones are okay, but you never know. I wonder if low progesterone
effects weight loss. I will have to look that up too. And I think I will put a post out to the
group too. See if I there are any more diabetics out there. See if they have ran into
anything.

cb9094 - Thanks for your vibes!!! I will take all I can get! I will STOP second guessing myself
and just let the protocol do what it is supposed to do.

You gals are the greatest and I am very lucky to have found you all! Don't know if I could have done this without you all. Well I might have, but it sure would have been very lonely!!!! I just have to go along for the ride and see where this takes me! The ride maybe bumpy...but the end of the trip will be well worth it!

Be Blessed!

Tracey

December 16, 2007 SLOW!!!!!

Well everyone, sorry for no posts in a few days. Well I am still slow! The scale has only moved down .5 lbs! But in thinking these past few days. I am trying hard not to get frustrated and doing a lot of self talk. What every you want to call it! The one thought that I have to keep putting it out of my head is that this is not going to work for me. Be like all the rest, hit a certain point and then it peters out! (had some of them too...Oh that is for another blog! LOL) It has to work..that is all there is to it. But I may have been sabotaging myself. I have been forgetting to take my night dose of Hcg! What a pre menopausal woman I am! LOL (Just took my night time dose!) So I have not had the full amount, that doesn't help! And I looked back on old info and I did really slow losing at the same time, last round. I remember on my 2 week weigh in telling the lady about this and she advised not to weigh everyday. So it could be that also. Or it could just be that at one point in my life this was a comfortable weight! Yeah like 2 weeks! LOL I can't remember hanging around in the 250's before. But it could have been when I was first married.

So everyone please send your vibes that this gnawing feeling will leave me and the scales move more! When my doctor told me that with diabetes your body doesn't like to lose weight...he was sure right! When I see people losing weight on the here or my diabetes groups, I am so happy for them and then a little disappointed that I have to haul this road. Why can some people just have the weight fly off and others it takes forever? But it was mine in the making for not getting my weight under control sooner. Now the damage is done and I have to deal with all that comes with it.

But I am going to stay on plan and keep with protocol with the food. If this diet is soooo sensative that I can't use lotion on my aligator skin. Well it can just suck a big toe! LOL I can't live my life second guessing everything I do. I just don't do well going down that road. If I keep eating the way I am supposed too, it will have to come off, right??????? Tell me I am right!!!!

Love you all and be blessed!

Tracey

December 13 2007 Still the same!

Well I am still hanging in there at 259. I am thinking about what is going on and have to check something out. Hate to keep everyone in suspense, but I am whipped to day. Mood has lifted and the yearning seems to be lifting a little, not as bad as it was. Didn't feel like I had to have something to munch on all day.

Everyone have a great day!

Be Blessed!

Tracey

December 12, 2007 Blah's

Weight 259

Still the same! So I thought, I will measure, that will lift my spirits! Well I lost 5 inches. That didn't help! But at least 3 inches came of my upper stomach. I do 2 measurements of my stomach as I am long waisted. My other waist measurement stayed the same. Lost an inch in my hips. So now my hips are smaller then my waist! Everyone at work is saying that they can really see a difference, but I am not at that spot yet. The other inch came from my bicep and thigh. It is progress, I know that, but just in a funky mood today. It will pass!!! Have stayed on plan, but still having that yearning for something, can't put my finger on it. It is not hunger per say, but something that I must be missing or needing.

Tomorrow is another day and hope this cloud passes soon.

Be Blessed!

Tracey

R2P2 270
yesterday 259
today 259
loss/gain 0
total this round 11 lbs.

Well I am happy with no weight gone, it could have been a gain. I just have to remember...Run from the sample ladies at the grocery store! LOL But today I did good on protocol. Everything within the plan for P2. Ate my apple around noon and didn't get to lunch until 2:30. Had supper at 9:00. Made a kung pao chicken...not to bad, still have to play around with the seasonings.

Biz..I don't know why the clinic told me to increase my protein. I go in on the 17th for weigh in, so I will ask them. Maybe it was because of my diabetes. Because the printed instructions they have printed for everyone does show the 3.5 oz for protein at meals.

I forgot to measure....Grrrrr. Will have to do that tomorrow night.

Well the ice storm has cometh, so I better keep this short and sweet and get to bed, will have to get up early in the morning and try and make it into work. I hate the ice!

Be Blessed!

Tracey

December 9, 2007

R2P2 starting weight 270
yesterday 260
today 259
loss/gain -1.0 lbs

Happy Dance Time!!!! Now tomorrow it might all catch up with me. But I will take the 1 lb loss today. Last night or should I say middle of the night my IBS kicked in. Don't know why, haven't had alot of greens. Mine usually hits me sporadically, just hits me whenever. But thank goodness it is not a major issue in my life. So today I just ate my protein and cucumbers. Didn't have my fruit. Kinda felt woozy through out the day. Think I am having my morning sickness again. Had that last round too. But I least I know what it is and know it will pass in a couple days.

Biz - You had asked about the clinic I am going to. My internal med doctor also has a weightloss clinic. He used to do it in his office, but insurance doesn't pay for it. So it was better for him to set up a separate office. That way he doesn't have to fight with patients when their insurance company doesn't pay for an office visit. They know up front going to the weightloss clinic that the insurance company will not pay for most of the services. When it was in his office, he had a nurse practioner seeing those patients. At that time he offered the Medifast, HMR type diet. The shakes and replacement meals. Well that is not for me. I need to chew food, not drink it!!! LOL. We still couldn't get my triglycerides down. So he wanted me to check them out again, said they had something new. I went and visited them and they told me about Releana. I got the info and told them I would make a decision and call them back. I had to do my research first. I was a little skeptical at first. But then found the yahoo groups and read and read. When I just considered the diet, at first it was no way, but read how most people didn't have hunger pains. So I decided that time was a wasting and took the plunge. They use Dr. S's protocol. The only difference is that they said I could eat 5 - 6 oz of protein instead of the 3.5 oz of protein. So I am getting more calories than the 500 per day. So I knew that I might not lose as fast as you all doing it by yourselves. But I am fine with that. I have lost more than my past history of 15 lbs and then stalls. So WOOHOO!!!

Well it is time to crawl into bed.

Be Blessed!

Tracey