Well I am home from work. My hidradenitis has reared it's ugly head! Literally!!! For those that do not know what this is, it is a skin condition that resembles boils. UCK!!! Just took a hot soak in the tub to see if this will help it drain. So I thought I would get ramble for a bit!
Had a few questions on Byetta(exenatide). This is a newer drug for type II (adult onset) diabetes. For people on it , we refer to it as "lizard spit". The drug was discovered while research was being done of the properties in the salvia of the Gila Monster. The gist of the drug is that it slows down digestion so the insulin spike is not a quick spike and more like a slow move upwards. Thus you need to secrete less insulin. I think the reason I went so low the other day is because I took the drug after I ate and not before. Also you need to have some carbs to make this drug work most effectively. With is hcg diet and losing the weight, I hope to be off of this drug sooner than later. I started to develop a side effect of gastropherisis. Which is delayed stomach emptying that diabetes can get. My drug is doing it's job, but just a little to much! I also seem to get the side effects that only 2% of the population gets. So then I was prescribed Reglan to off set that side effect. Thank goodness that drug has been around and is cheap. But getting this weight off and not having to use the Byetta will save me money. It is around $200.00 a month. I still will probably still have to take my Glucophage(metformin) as my insulin resistance is really bad. Plus it helps with the PCOS.
Well I guess my furnance decided to act up while I am off today. Grrrrrr! But at least it was not tomorrow when I was back at work. The overflow pipe is clogged and backing into the furnance...water all over the basement floor. What a loving feeling when you are not expecting it. Things come in threes....so I will sit here waiting anxiously to see what happens next! LOL
Just reread and interesting post from Dr. Micheal Eades blog. Here is the link if anyone is interested reading it.
http://www.proteinpower.com/drmike/2007/11/15/learn-why-anthony-colpo-is-mad-and-get-a-free-book/
The article is regarding a Metabloic Advantage of a Low Carb diet. But the part that got me thinking and kinda of helps me understand the Hcg Diet a bit more. I can see how Dr. S has us not do fat while on the VLCD part of the plan. The low carbs lower our insulin levels and open the door to the fat cells. But it is the lower calories or lower fat that allows the our bodies to use the fat and thus lose the weight. It was interesting that how he had patients that were doing low carb and not losing weight until they lowered their calories. Will be interesting to find out. But I have much weight to lose to get there. 83 more lbs to lose! WOW! That is a lot of weight to get off this body, but with this diet it should get me there by late spring of 2008. Sometimes it is hard to wrap my head around that. Will be interesting to see how my attitudes with food and weight have turned around by then. But just to think I am in the 260's is unreal and I don't think my brain has really truly crasped that. By the end of the first full week of December, I could be in the 250's! Amazing!!!
Why has it taken me so long to address the weight? Was my heart not all in it? Was I holding on to past hurts? Knowing myself, probably a bit of everything. Sometimes I would get so frustrated that I would do things to the letter and everyone around me would lose weight and I would move the scales 5 lbs. I wanted to scream! Then go through a faze of I guess I was just destined to be fat, even though no one in my family is. And then have the medical community tell me that with diabetes it is harder to loose weight, you have strikes against you before you even start! FRUSTRATING...is just a mild word to describe those feelings. Well now with Hcg, I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. It started out very weak, thinking..yeah sure, I have heard this story before. Works for everyone else but me! But now the light is getting brighter and I am almost 98% I will get to see the end of the tunnel. I think when I can get the next 20 lbs off the doubts in my mind will vanish. With my history of losing 15-20lbs and then my body stalling out, getting past that will help so much. Maybe I will enjoy shopping again! LOL Will be interesting to see how this journey continues and not have to worry about weight again!!! What kind of trouble could I get myself into...Evil Grin!
Okay..enough rambling today!
Be Blessed!
Tracey
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
November 26-27 2007 Another 1lb gone!!!
Well I lost another 1lb this week. That seems to work out right...eating around 1200 calories per day on P3. My resting caloric intake is 1800. They say that to loose a 1lb you need to expend 3500 calories. So that is 500 decrease per day x 7 = 3500. And my body is doing some shift shaping too. Ooooo! feels like the X-files! Got a good look getting out of the shower this weekend and I think I need to start researching plastic surgeons. I will definitely need a tummy tuck, not that I think I need a rock hard stomach, just to remove the skin. I like a little pooch anyways. And the other good news I found out last week was another lady in the office had the skin removal surgery and our insurance covers it. So I won't have to wait forever to get it done. I carry all my fat in my stomach and abdomen. If I was a guy, I would just have a "beer belly". Now I am just a chick that hasn't had her "baby" for 15 years! I did get before pictures, I will have to take some updated ones and get those posted sometime.
Biz and Amy hit a couple things that I have been thinking about. Why am I ready for P2 again, and why is it sooooo cold!!!! Right after Thanksgiving I was thinking, I am ready for P2 again!!! Can't believe these words are even entering my brain. At first I thought I would do P2 back to back, because I thought once I was off I wouldn't want to go back on it. Well surprise, surprise, I do WANT to go back on P2. I wonder if this is a conspiracy! The old Tracey thinks so! Tonite I was even going over Renee's recipes to decide which ones I will start with for next week! I think this new me is growing!
And about this cold business, what is with this! I have never been this way, ever! I was always the hot blooded one. Well last weekend I went out and bought some long sleeve shirts at Shopko. Just to get mix in with my short sleeve ones. At work I am chilled and that is just not like me at all. Might even have to invest in a sweater to keep at work. Now the gals at the office would die seeing that one! Wonder where we could research this, maybe put a poll on the yahoo group. Speaking of the yahoo group, I haven't been getting my digest emails, went and checked my settings and it is still set to receive the digest and checked the bulk emails. So might have to send an email off to them.
Got off the phone tonight with my mother. Don't you just love them! LOL I love my mom dearly, but at times, her "advice" just gets in my craw. I have learned to ignore most of it and just let it go and let her ramble. It was funny, on Thanksgiving, I told her that I would have my load weekend, next weekend. Told her that I needed to eat as much fatten food as I could stand. She told me that just wasn't right and i have worked so hard to loose 23 lbs, that I should not do that. Told her that Dr. S said that is what you need to do. She told me, Well he must not have really meant that and I should eat lightly. LOL She cracks me up! Just looked at her and said, okay mom. Left it at that! Oh and tonight she let me know that I made a big mistake. In October I lost my bird, Cisco. Had him for over 15 years. Two weeks ago, I got a new bird. He is a hand-fed lovebird. Cute little sh*t! Named him Lafayette. At Thanksgiving dinner, somehow the conversation about Cisco came up and my cousin didn't know that he died. I explained what happen, that he got cancer. The first thing out of my mom's mouth was, "Well it was sad that he is dead, but she doesn't need any animals!" Shiela asked if I was going to get a new one, and mom answered "No she isn't!" I left it at that....no sense of arguing at the dinner table and tell her that I already had bought a new one! So today my dad came over to clean my gutters and he came in the house and saw the new bird. So I called him to thank him and mom got on the phone..."So, your father told me that you have a bird!" I thought you weren't going to get a new one!" I told her, no, that is what you said. I never said I wasn't. Told her it was strange coming into the house and having no one to say hello too. Then I got her good. Told her well I guess I could have just picked up some guy to keep me company...she paused for a minute. Then told me she thought I went for almost 2 months without a bird, she hoped that I was past the phase of getting a new one. But I did throw her off her rhythm for a moment! LOL
I have also figured out that I can't take my Byetta shots unless I have eaten alot of carbs now. Saturday I went for my massage. Get them every two weeks. I know the protocol says you are not supposed to have them while on the program. But I dare anyone to stop me! I need them just to keep me sane! Plus, I don't have some European woman named Helga giving them to me, neither! LOL My massages are not for manipulating my fat! She works on my muscles...hee hee. Loved when I read that in his book. Sounded like torture..I would kill someone if they massaged me the way he described. Plus I have never done any of the P1 things that Kevin Trudeau talks about. I know Dr. S talks about the oils, but I am not going to sweat that, I still lost during last P2. Anyways, after my massage I was hungry, so stopped at a dinner and got breakfast. Ordered and it came with hashbrowns. I didn't realized that when I ordered. Well I had a couple of bites and they were cooked very well, nice and crunchy. Wasn't to big a portion, so I ate them. When I got home it was less than an hour after I ate, so I decided to take my shot. About 2 hours later, started to get a headache and went for some motrin. All of a sudden I got the shakes, my whole body was shaking and I couldn't open the bottle. Tried to get my shakes to stop, but couldn't. So I decided to take my blood sugars. Well found the answer for my headache and the shakes, it was 38! Not good at all! So I ate a handful of chocolate chips and a handful of peanuts and then went into the living room and kept telling myself to not go back into the kitchen. I don't know if anyone else has dealt with hypoglycema, but when you drop low, you get an intense urge to eat!!! It is like you would knock an old lady over just to get to food. It is so crazy and intense. It is just amazing how your physical body will take over the mind, just to get what it needs. About 45 minutes later I got it back up to 77. I now know not to do that again. I will use the 10mg pen when I load this weekend, but after that I will only use the 5mg pen until I have more weight off and won't need to use the medicine anymore.
Well I better get this butt to bed, the X-files are starting and I haven't made it into the bed yet. Oh...and Santa is wondering what I want for Christmas, so let me know about the digital scales that everyone is using. Would like to let Santa know what brand works well.
Be Blessed!
Tracey
Biz and Amy hit a couple things that I have been thinking about. Why am I ready for P2 again, and why is it sooooo cold!!!! Right after Thanksgiving I was thinking, I am ready for P2 again!!! Can't believe these words are even entering my brain. At first I thought I would do P2 back to back, because I thought once I was off I wouldn't want to go back on it. Well surprise, surprise, I do WANT to go back on P2. I wonder if this is a conspiracy! The old Tracey thinks so! Tonite I was even going over Renee's recipes to decide which ones I will start with for next week! I think this new me is growing!
And about this cold business, what is with this! I have never been this way, ever! I was always the hot blooded one. Well last weekend I went out and bought some long sleeve shirts at Shopko. Just to get mix in with my short sleeve ones. At work I am chilled and that is just not like me at all. Might even have to invest in a sweater to keep at work. Now the gals at the office would die seeing that one! Wonder where we could research this, maybe put a poll on the yahoo group. Speaking of the yahoo group, I haven't been getting my digest emails, went and checked my settings and it is still set to receive the digest and checked the bulk emails. So might have to send an email off to them.
Got off the phone tonight with my mother. Don't you just love them! LOL I love my mom dearly, but at times, her "advice" just gets in my craw. I have learned to ignore most of it and just let it go and let her ramble. It was funny, on Thanksgiving, I told her that I would have my load weekend, next weekend. Told her that I needed to eat as much fatten food as I could stand. She told me that just wasn't right and i have worked so hard to loose 23 lbs, that I should not do that. Told her that Dr. S said that is what you need to do. She told me, Well he must not have really meant that and I should eat lightly. LOL She cracks me up! Just looked at her and said, okay mom. Left it at that! Oh and tonight she let me know that I made a big mistake. In October I lost my bird, Cisco. Had him for over 15 years. Two weeks ago, I got a new bird. He is a hand-fed lovebird. Cute little sh*t! Named him Lafayette. At Thanksgiving dinner, somehow the conversation about Cisco came up and my cousin didn't know that he died. I explained what happen, that he got cancer. The first thing out of my mom's mouth was, "Well it was sad that he is dead, but she doesn't need any animals!" Shiela asked if I was going to get a new one, and mom answered "No she isn't!" I left it at that....no sense of arguing at the dinner table and tell her that I already had bought a new one! So today my dad came over to clean my gutters and he came in the house and saw the new bird. So I called him to thank him and mom got on the phone..."So, your father told me that you have a bird!" I thought you weren't going to get a new one!" I told her, no, that is what you said. I never said I wasn't. Told her it was strange coming into the house and having no one to say hello too. Then I got her good. Told her well I guess I could have just picked up some guy to keep me company...she paused for a minute. Then told me she thought I went for almost 2 months without a bird, she hoped that I was past the phase of getting a new one. But I did throw her off her rhythm for a moment! LOL
I have also figured out that I can't take my Byetta shots unless I have eaten alot of carbs now. Saturday I went for my massage. Get them every two weeks. I know the protocol says you are not supposed to have them while on the program. But I dare anyone to stop me! I need them just to keep me sane! Plus, I don't have some European woman named Helga giving them to me, neither! LOL My massages are not for manipulating my fat! She works on my muscles...hee hee. Loved when I read that in his book. Sounded like torture..I would kill someone if they massaged me the way he described. Plus I have never done any of the P1 things that Kevin Trudeau talks about. I know Dr. S talks about the oils, but I am not going to sweat that, I still lost during last P2. Anyways, after my massage I was hungry, so stopped at a dinner and got breakfast. Ordered and it came with hashbrowns. I didn't realized that when I ordered. Well I had a couple of bites and they were cooked very well, nice and crunchy. Wasn't to big a portion, so I ate them. When I got home it was less than an hour after I ate, so I decided to take my shot. About 2 hours later, started to get a headache and went for some motrin. All of a sudden I got the shakes, my whole body was shaking and I couldn't open the bottle. Tried to get my shakes to stop, but couldn't. So I decided to take my blood sugars. Well found the answer for my headache and the shakes, it was 38! Not good at all! So I ate a handful of chocolate chips and a handful of peanuts and then went into the living room and kept telling myself to not go back into the kitchen. I don't know if anyone else has dealt with hypoglycema, but when you drop low, you get an intense urge to eat!!! It is like you would knock an old lady over just to get to food. It is so crazy and intense. It is just amazing how your physical body will take over the mind, just to get what it needs. About 45 minutes later I got it back up to 77. I now know not to do that again. I will use the 10mg pen when I load this weekend, but after that I will only use the 5mg pen until I have more weight off and won't need to use the medicine anymore.
Well I better get this butt to bed, the X-files are starting and I haven't made it into the bed yet. Oh...and Santa is wondering what I want for Christmas, so let me know about the digital scales that everyone is using. Would like to let Santa know what brand works well.
Be Blessed!
Tracey
Thursday, November 22, 2007
November 22, 2007 HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!! Going over to mom and dad's this afternoon for a nice dinner with family. I have decided that I will have a spoon of potatoes and stuffing and of course a homemade roll I slaved over last night! LOL Mom called last night to let me know that she is adding more to the veggie tray and will have some veggies for me to take home...yummy!
What a minute! What was that last comment? Veggies...happy...yummy!! Ok, now I know for sure, an alien have taken over this body! LOL But when I really think about it, there is a foreign person brewing inside of me! Slowly growing and I can't wait to see how this new person develops and grows. So far, I think I am going to really like this new person. Since starting this plan, I have been mulling over why this plan, why now, what was my obstacles before. The last time I was truly successful on losing weight was back in the 80's. Once on the Diet Center, I think that was in 81 and WW in 86. Both plans I dropped about 3oish lbs. And the one thing that was constant on those programs is that I was by myself. I was just me doing it for me! The first time I was single and the WW my ex was out to sea. He was an officer in the Navy. I had lost weight when he was around, but never much and it never stayed off. I know we can't blame our weight on other people, but without him around now, there is so much less stress in my life. The stress does effect weight loss, well I am a firm believer in that thought. He was never an encourager. He was a black and white person, there was hardly ever a gray area in his thought processes. When I would ask for encouragement from him, his answer would be why?, just do it! Grrrrr... I would hate that! One of the reasons we are no longer together!
Still hanging in at 262 lbs! Last time I weighed that was 21 years ago! That is still sinking into my brain. Why have I waiting so long to due something about this? Was it the situations I was in? Did I not care about myself? Did I resign myself to the fate of being obese the rest of my life? I think there is a little bit of all of those that kept me from truly being at the place I am now. What changed to make this different? I don't know for sure. But one thing I do know is that the past few years I was just sick and tired!!! And tired of being sick!! Whether it was my thought processes or my physical body.
When I was diagnosised with diabetes I started changing my attitude towards foods, but still had that nagging thought in the back of my head...This is not fair...why can't I eat whatever I want! Oh this plan, I have really got that issued settled within me. I feel sooooo much better without all those starches in me. I have more energy, joints feel better, not as sluggish as I was. For whatever reason I am sensitive to starches. Whether it be gluten related, my insulin resistance, candidiasis or all of the above. My insurance at work has health coaches for certain diseases. You get a $100 dollars for participating. You do a little survey when you start and finish the program. My nurse told me that I had such a big difference in my energy question. She was impressed! I got her really interesting in the Hcg diet too. I think she took better to it, since my doctor offered it to me. LOL But now that I have a physical feeling to relate of feeling good, that helps my mind deal with deprivation. I now think of it as feel good or feel like sh*t! Which would you choose? I guess why the thought of naming my blog transformation hit me. Like a catepiller to butterfly, yep that is me! This new person inside of me is transforming and growing and changing. I can't wait to meet her!
Well I should start to get ready to go over to the folks, but one question I am posing to my fellow bloggers. I am going to ask Santa for a digital scale for Christmas! So get the word out and please post your suggestions. I want Santa to get me a nice reliable one. You guys are so wonderful with support and ideas, I knew I wanted to ask you about the scale!
Thanks for all your support and BE BLESSED!!!
Tracey
What a minute! What was that last comment? Veggies...happy...yummy!! Ok, now I know for sure, an alien have taken over this body! LOL But when I really think about it, there is a foreign person brewing inside of me! Slowly growing and I can't wait to see how this new person develops and grows. So far, I think I am going to really like this new person. Since starting this plan, I have been mulling over why this plan, why now, what was my obstacles before. The last time I was truly successful on losing weight was back in the 80's. Once on the Diet Center, I think that was in 81 and WW in 86. Both plans I dropped about 3oish lbs. And the one thing that was constant on those programs is that I was by myself. I was just me doing it for me! The first time I was single and the WW my ex was out to sea. He was an officer in the Navy. I had lost weight when he was around, but never much and it never stayed off. I know we can't blame our weight on other people, but without him around now, there is so much less stress in my life. The stress does effect weight loss, well I am a firm believer in that thought. He was never an encourager. He was a black and white person, there was hardly ever a gray area in his thought processes. When I would ask for encouragement from him, his answer would be why?, just do it! Grrrrr... I would hate that! One of the reasons we are no longer together!
Still hanging in at 262 lbs! Last time I weighed that was 21 years ago! That is still sinking into my brain. Why have I waiting so long to due something about this? Was it the situations I was in? Did I not care about myself? Did I resign myself to the fate of being obese the rest of my life? I think there is a little bit of all of those that kept me from truly being at the place I am now. What changed to make this different? I don't know for sure. But one thing I do know is that the past few years I was just sick and tired!!! And tired of being sick!! Whether it was my thought processes or my physical body.
When I was diagnosised with diabetes I started changing my attitude towards foods, but still had that nagging thought in the back of my head...This is not fair...why can't I eat whatever I want! Oh this plan, I have really got that issued settled within me. I feel sooooo much better without all those starches in me. I have more energy, joints feel better, not as sluggish as I was. For whatever reason I am sensitive to starches. Whether it be gluten related, my insulin resistance, candidiasis or all of the above. My insurance at work has health coaches for certain diseases. You get a $100 dollars for participating. You do a little survey when you start and finish the program. My nurse told me that I had such a big difference in my energy question. She was impressed! I got her really interesting in the Hcg diet too. I think she took better to it, since my doctor offered it to me. LOL But now that I have a physical feeling to relate of feeling good, that helps my mind deal with deprivation. I now think of it as feel good or feel like sh*t! Which would you choose? I guess why the thought of naming my blog transformation hit me. Like a catepiller to butterfly, yep that is me! This new person inside of me is transforming and growing and changing. I can't wait to meet her!
Well I should start to get ready to go over to the folks, but one question I am posing to my fellow bloggers. I am going to ask Santa for a digital scale for Christmas! So get the word out and please post your suggestions. I want Santa to get me a nice reliable one. You guys are so wonderful with support and ideas, I knew I wanted to ask you about the scale!
Thanks for all your support and BE BLESSED!!!
Tracey
Saturday, November 17, 2007
November 17, 2007 Nice Sunny day!
I have lost 1 more lb! Yippee for me. That makes a total of 21 lbs. I am so thankful for this diet and the research and dedication that Dr. S had to solve something that he thought was a problem. Not posting my charts today...as I am at the car wash right now and just don't want to take the time. But will get them back up in my next post.
This week has been so hectic at work.. thought is was a full moon week! Maybe just a big hormonal surge when you have around 50 women working in the same area! LOL Was so nice to be able to put on my headpones and ignore the rest of the office...just get in my own little world. Only have taps on my shoulders when questions needed answers, but didn't have to listen to all the overall whining!! That is what drives me nuts...who cares who looked at who funny! Please women...go up!!! Ok..I will get off that soap box! LOL
Biz wrote in her blog the other day about noticing adding more carbs into diet and the effect of sinusits. I noticed that too earlier this week. I heard this voice calling me....it was a nice warm soft voice. "Tracey...come here...I have something to show you!" Didn't know my head has such a pleasant voice! LOL
Well after getting my crown put on this week, I stopped at a place that had biscuits and gravy. The car took over and went right into the drive thru...then that soft pleasant voice came out of my mouth...next thing I know the worker is handing me one biscuit and gravy! Don't know how that happened! hee hee But it tasted wonderful and hit the spot. But about 3 hours later I could feel my sinuses start to clog up. That can be a symptom for wheat allergies. I started to feel sluggish and brain foggy. I know that is part of my symptoms also when my blood sugars are out of control...but I tested and was 84. So that was not it. My boss has Celiac disease and this is how hers started too. She also gets constipated, joint aches, sinsuses and headaches. But hers is at a stage where it hits her almost immediately. Her mother almost died from it, was in the hospital for over a month, before they got her under control and well enough to be released. But I wouldn't doubt if alot of us have some form of wheat/gluten allergies. This causes internal inflammation. And some of the research that I have done regarding diabetes and people with weight gain and main stream diets don't work on....well they seem to have inflammation issues too. Just makes me kind of wonder.
Yesterday was food day at work, a gal was leaving. I did really good. There was a table of meats and cheeses. I was so proud of myself. Some fruit. Apples with a bit of peanut butter on them. Then about an hour later had to take something to one of the gals and I walked the back way to get to her desk. Well to my surprise there was a table with more food! And what did I see...oh some egg bakes, carmel and chocolate covered popcorn and brownies. Well I was able to resist the popcorn and brownies (they were store bought) but that soft pleasant voice from within..told me to try one of the egg bake things. I chose one. It was really good...the gal took stove top stuffing (cooked) and may a shell inside of the muffin tin and then cracked an egg inside and topped with cheese and bacon. Was really good...but about 45 minutes later...man...my blood sugars really hit me. They didn't go really high, but high enough that I was feeling crappy. Wanted to sleep, brain fog and seemed like I was having pure sugar running in my veins! Hate that feeling. I didn't have my byetta at work..otherwise I could have taken a shot and wouldn't have experienced that. But made me think about how carbs really effect ones body. Feeling like crap for the most of the rest of the day...all for some stuffing? Is it worth it? Will it hurt me to do it once in awhile? All questions to ponder and will probably always be thinking about. Most days I would say no...it isn't worth it. But somedays that sweet small pleasant voice just pops out of nowhere. Like an old friend that you haven't spent time with. You just can't wait to catch up, spend time with them. But at the end of the day you must go home.
This whole process is such a learning experience and some days we take one step foward and others two steps back. But like others of you and I have experienced. There is something different with this journey...seems like are brains are getting reprogrammed too. Maybe because we know this works, we know what to do if we too much of a good/bad thing. I don't know...but my whole mindset has changed with this. I don't feel like I have to test the waters to see how much I can get away with. I know when I am off plan, but like Biz wrote, if it doesn't taste like I thought it should or used to taste, it goes in the trash. Why eat it if the taste is just not there. I guess the one feeling that I can convey today is that...I feel CALM!!! Not lazy, just a nice steady and soothing feeling in my soul. I pray our growth continues on this journey and it deepens and enriches us. That we know who we are and what we need...geez all this from losing weight! WOOHOO!!! Let's enjoy the ride! I am sure it will be a great and adventourus one!!!
My car is ready!! Yippee...nice and clean! Got it detailed for the winter!
Take care everyone and BE BLESSED!!!!
Tracey
This week has been so hectic at work.. thought is was a full moon week! Maybe just a big hormonal surge when you have around 50 women working in the same area! LOL Was so nice to be able to put on my headpones and ignore the rest of the office...just get in my own little world. Only have taps on my shoulders when questions needed answers, but didn't have to listen to all the overall whining!! That is what drives me nuts...who cares who looked at who funny! Please women...go up!!! Ok..I will get off that soap box! LOL
Biz wrote in her blog the other day about noticing adding more carbs into diet and the effect of sinusits. I noticed that too earlier this week. I heard this voice calling me....it was a nice warm soft voice. "Tracey...come here...I have something to show you!" Didn't know my head has such a pleasant voice! LOL
Well after getting my crown put on this week, I stopped at a place that had biscuits and gravy. The car took over and went right into the drive thru...then that soft pleasant voice came out of my mouth...next thing I know the worker is handing me one biscuit and gravy! Don't know how that happened! hee hee But it tasted wonderful and hit the spot. But about 3 hours later I could feel my sinuses start to clog up. That can be a symptom for wheat allergies. I started to feel sluggish and brain foggy. I know that is part of my symptoms also when my blood sugars are out of control...but I tested and was 84. So that was not it. My boss has Celiac disease and this is how hers started too. She also gets constipated, joint aches, sinsuses and headaches. But hers is at a stage where it hits her almost immediately. Her mother almost died from it, was in the hospital for over a month, before they got her under control and well enough to be released. But I wouldn't doubt if alot of us have some form of wheat/gluten allergies. This causes internal inflammation. And some of the research that I have done regarding diabetes and people with weight gain and main stream diets don't work on....well they seem to have inflammation issues too. Just makes me kind of wonder.
Yesterday was food day at work, a gal was leaving. I did really good. There was a table of meats and cheeses. I was so proud of myself. Some fruit. Apples with a bit of peanut butter on them. Then about an hour later had to take something to one of the gals and I walked the back way to get to her desk. Well to my surprise there was a table with more food! And what did I see...oh some egg bakes, carmel and chocolate covered popcorn and brownies. Well I was able to resist the popcorn and brownies (they were store bought) but that soft pleasant voice from within..told me to try one of the egg bake things. I chose one. It was really good...the gal took stove top stuffing (cooked) and may a shell inside of the muffin tin and then cracked an egg inside and topped with cheese and bacon. Was really good...but about 45 minutes later...man...my blood sugars really hit me. They didn't go really high, but high enough that I was feeling crappy. Wanted to sleep, brain fog and seemed like I was having pure sugar running in my veins! Hate that feeling. I didn't have my byetta at work..otherwise I could have taken a shot and wouldn't have experienced that. But made me think about how carbs really effect ones body. Feeling like crap for the most of the rest of the day...all for some stuffing? Is it worth it? Will it hurt me to do it once in awhile? All questions to ponder and will probably always be thinking about. Most days I would say no...it isn't worth it. But somedays that sweet small pleasant voice just pops out of nowhere. Like an old friend that you haven't spent time with. You just can't wait to catch up, spend time with them. But at the end of the day you must go home.
This whole process is such a learning experience and some days we take one step foward and others two steps back. But like others of you and I have experienced. There is something different with this journey...seems like are brains are getting reprogrammed too. Maybe because we know this works, we know what to do if we too much of a good/bad thing. I don't know...but my whole mindset has changed with this. I don't feel like I have to test the waters to see how much I can get away with. I know when I am off plan, but like Biz wrote, if it doesn't taste like I thought it should or used to taste, it goes in the trash. Why eat it if the taste is just not there. I guess the one feeling that I can convey today is that...I feel CALM!!! Not lazy, just a nice steady and soothing feeling in my soul. I pray our growth continues on this journey and it deepens and enriches us. That we know who we are and what we need...geez all this from losing weight! WOOHOO!!! Let's enjoy the ride! I am sure it will be a great and adventourus one!!!
My car is ready!! Yippee...nice and clean! Got it detailed for the winter!
Take care everyone and BE BLESSED!!!!
Tracey
Monday, November 12, 2007
November 12, 2007 Made my goal!
My Weight Chart:
Sorry I haven't posted in a bit. Time can really get away from you. Can't believe the year is almost over! Well last Thursday I had my weigh in for the end of P2. I needed to lose 2 lbs. And I did it!!!! Thanks everyone for sending those weight loss vibes. I was very proud of the loss. 20 lbs in 25 days! Also got my new bottle of Releana for the next round. I can go back and weigh again before i start it or wait until after two weeks into R2P2. But I will probably head back in again. Oh got my body compostion from the clinic...they have one of those fancy scales. My total Body water went from 101.5 to 99.5, my muscle mass went from 139.0 to 136.0, so that was really good..only lost 3 lbs of muscle. My fat mass when from 144 to 127. My BMI went from 45.6 to 42.5 and my Basal Metabolic rate went from 1971 calories to 1886 calories. So they advised me to keep my calories for P3 under 1500 to still have some weight loss. And at least get 90 grams of protein in per day. But I know that I will have more protein.
Today was my first day of P3 and I had a salad. I have been craving one with salad dressing. Had it with a chicken breast in it and some Marble jack cheese. Tasted so good. Tonight I had a ground sirloin patty and sauted mushrooms. So yummy! Now what will be interesting to watch is how my blood sugar handles the extra fat. Hopefully I won't have to start back up with my Byetta. I wanted to do this P3 to see how my blood sugars handle all of this. Such a balancing act. I can't wait till more weight is off and my body responds sooo much better.
I have been weighing everyday and watching the scale barely move...but I have to remember that I have a analog scale. So I don't get to jump up and down for my .2 or .4 losses. Maybe I can ask Santa for a digital one. That's a thought! I think I have been a good girl this year!
Well my buddie from Baton Rouge is buzzing me to work our challenges on Pogo.com, so I better get my butt to moving!
Everyone be blessed and the weightloss faires visit all of us!!!!
Tracey
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
November 6, 2007 - 2 lbs say goodbye!!!
My Weight Chart:
Good Day everyone out there! I hope all is going well with eveyone out there. The north wind is starting to blow in, the sun is still shining, but dang that wind just whips right through you! I guess one positive to this is that your body will burn more calories staying warm!! Maybe I could ask to move my work outside for the day! Get that metabolism to get in gear! LOL But 2 more lbs off this body!!! It has not settled into my brain yet that I am in the 260's. WOW...I haven't seen these numbers since the mid 80's!!! 20 years...can you believe that! And my fat is going through a squishy stage. Love that...when i was on CAD diet, and I got squishy fat around my stomach...weightloss was right around the corner.
My last post I brought up the term Hcg Nazi Police. I have read everyone's comments and I want everyone to know that it was not aimed at anyone here. Just posts in one Yahoo group just stirred up the rebel in me. Just hit and nerve and to get it off my chest. I have an issue with the "one size fit all" mentality. I have had dealt with this for years. From diet plans to the medical community that can't get past the attitude that everyone will react the same and have the same results with a diet plan, illness, etc.
One of the worst I have had for an example of my many. I went Haiti on a 10 day missions trip. Wonderful experience I would recommend for anyone to do if they every have the opportunity! Well, we only had 2 meals a day. It would be considered a high carb and low protein diet. Pancakes for breakfast, pasta or rice and beans for dinner. Very little meat. ratio would be at least 3:1. And even though it was hot and humid, I stayed hydrated. Came back and noticed I gained 7 lbs!! What...how could that be! So I made an appointment with my doctor. Told him...something is wrong with me. There is no way I should have gained 7 lbs in 10 days only eating 2 meals a day. And they were not big portions either. He seemed to be listening to me and then he told me he had a diet plan for me. He went and got the diet and handed me the papers. I read the food list and suggestions of what to eat and not eat. Well it was a high carb diet!!!! I looked at him and said...you have not been listening to a word I have said to you! He told me to try it out..it will work. I told him that if I eat this way, I will come back in 1 month and have gained 20 more! I fired that doctor right then and there. Something just rose up in me and I finally got to the point where I was not going to take the "one size fits all" responses anymore! I am a crusader and have the strongest empathy for people that struggle with their weight or illness and that standard protocol just isn't working for them. Besides diabetes I also have big hormone issues, PCOS, hypothyrodism, Hidradenitis Supperativa, severe insulin resistance. So when I read someone getting chided for deviating off plan and the poster's words come across "holier than thou", it just hits me wrong. Now don't get me wrong...I love the interaction when people post for help and suggestions and people post back pointing out why something is not working or remind them of Dr. S's protocol. I guess my thing is the attitude on how it comes across. We all need to help and support one another....because it just get lonely fighting something by yourself. Now if you see me posting here or on a group that I just finished eating a nice big sesame seed bagel with a huge smear of cream cheese and I post that i didn't lose any weight and actually gained weight on P2.....Please ride me ass!!! LOL
One thing I that realized yesterday and feel it is a great accomplishment is that I have not had to use Byetta with my two meals! Yippee Skippy!!!! My doctor had given me a sample of a 5 mg pen in case I need that. I am currently on a 10 mg pen. But so far I have not had to use any at all!!!! I am hoping that during P3 I will not have to use it either. The real test will come when I start to add starches back into the diet. But by then...the loss of fat might help and I still won't need it. Diabetes and insulin resistance is a bitch! I have been experimenting with my night time med of Glyburide. I take 2.5 mg at night. The past week my morning numbers have been in the low 60's, which is really low for me. So the other night I decided not to take it and see what happens. Went to bed with blood sugars of 92. Woke up with b/s of 146! Go figure! It seems that I have the worst dawn effect ever! So last night I took my pill again and woke up today with my b/s being 92. So much better...so that one may take awhile to get off.
Amy, Amie, Biz ....thanks for all your support!!! Your words and experiences are inspiring to me!! Oh Amy...about that time of year that I lose the weight...It seems to be in the winter time, starts around January. Maybe I have an internal clock that goes off once a year. But looks like this Hcg has just kicked it's butt! I am a season ahead of schedule! LOL
Thursday the 8th is my next weigh in at the clinic. I will get my metabolic readings again and will post those. I think I am going to move to P3. I have the option of staying on P2 again, but I think I want to see how my body responds with the fat added back in with the diabetes. Plus I really want a salad with dressing! And then do P2 again after Thanksgiving. Then I will be ready for Christmas on P3 again. The Relena lasts around 26 days.
My partner in crime at work asked if it would be difficult to go back to the P2 again instead of staying on it for another round. I have pondered that and decided that it will not be difficult. I have lived almost a month without my mexican food. I will be able to do it again. I have confidence in myself that it can be done. I have never felt this way about an eating plan before. Ever!!! My mind has finally turned the corner and had decided that I am not depriving myself...I am making myself healthy physically and mentally. Now I just need to get this attitude for smoking.
So my goal for Thursday is 263 lbs. I need 2 more lbs to get there. Hope the fat gods are listening!!!
Thanks for reading!!
Tracey
Sunday, November 4, 2007
November 4, 2007
My Weight Chart:
Haven't posted in a little over a week. Just a hectic week...sometimes you just have to deal with crap you don't want too. But that is life...the good with the bad!
But it did get me to thinking about the weight that I am losing. Why am I losing it? Wasn't I happy with it? What are my true goals...have I even truly thought about them? Questions...questions...questions!!!! Is there ever and end to them? With me...probably not! Well I should say...when something resonates with my soul..it is settled. And until then..I am on a search!
A little history on my attempts of weight loss. With my diabetes, I have to be a carb watcher if I want to maintain good blood sugar levels. If you follow the ADA ( American Diabetes Associatons) diet. For most diabetes (type II) you will need more and more meds to control your diabetes. My humble opinion is that is set up that way. The disease associations work with and are funded big time by the pharmacy companies. Alas...lets keep the money rolling in!!! Okay...I better get off that rant...the focus should be on ME! LOL Anyway...my top weight was...drum roll inserted here... 325. I started this at 283. So that is 43 lbs in 4 years! I guess I really take the thought of slow weight loss is best...then you will have a better chance of keeping it off to heart! I guess the saying is true...haven't gained it back! Not saying that I couldn't if I tried, I would just feel like crap with my blood sugars out of whack! Didn't think diabetes could be a blessing in the weight loss category.
One thing that I have noticed is that my body has a 2-3 month span during the year that it will lose weight. For the past 4 years, I have eaten the same diet. I will go through a phase when I lose about 10-15 lbs. Then the rest of the year, I will play with the 5 lbs of going up and down. Do you know how frustrating that can be? I have dealt with it...until it seems like it is hopeless. Increasing exercise, watching my food more closely and nothing happens...gets to where I want to scream! I hate it..but it is my body.
Okay...all that to get to where I am at now. I am working this diet. I do have to deviate a little. But I am comfortable with that hope the Hcg Nazi police won't come after me! LOL I have to do what is right for my body and I will not take on any guilt from anyone, whether it was specially aimed at me or not. Just reading posts on the groups can make me question things. But I am past that and know what I have to do for myself. I am not advocating that you shouldn't stay on the plan that Dr. S states, but he has little advise for diabetics and I know how my body reacts to food. His advice for low blood sugar is to take 2 teaspoons of sugar. Well I spike to high and feel like crap! I instead just eat a handful of peanuts or some kind of nut or a piece of cheese and fight the rest of the hunger cravings until they pass. My blood sugar slowly rises back to normal and I don't feel like crap then. So I may not loose all I could have, but I can't get anal until I get to the point where my diabetes is under control with just food and exercise alone. My body chemistry is what it is and I just keep plugging away at it.
Had to get that down...was it to justify my "cheats"? Today I can say NO!! Last week it would have been a different answer, but I can't diet and have a cloud of guilt hanging over me. Not healthy for me at all! I have also decided that I can't weigh every day on P2. I was getting to frustrated with not seeing the numbers move like everyone else. When i went to weigh in at the clinic, they told me not to weigh everyday on this phase. I will have to on P3, but I am okay with that. I will be weighing to maintain. Something totally different than looking for a loss.
Well I need to get some work done around here and get some meals cooked for the week. So tomorrow I will go over some more thoughts that have been floating around in my mind!
Take care and be Blessed!!!
Tracey
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