Well I had my weigh in on 12/31 and I lost a total of 14 lbs this round. I think that was wonderful with Christmas in there. So I ended up 251!!! Can you say TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY ONE LBS!!!! I know some people will look at that number and think...Whoa! That's a lot!!! I can remember back in the day when my scale hit that number. I swore I would never let the scale get higher than that! Geez, we can fool ourselves can't we! But I never thought I would look at 251 fondly! Funny how a different perspective makes things look. I will take my measurements this weekend. I could do it now, but I am just plain bushed. Work has been really stressful, but I think that I am just doing it to myself. I get to a point where I just have to get rid of my stacks! They are really bugging me. So I am working on those now.
I am doing phase 3 for the rest of this week and will be back to phase 2 on Sunday or Monday. Not going to take the whole phase 3 this time. So I won't do any load days. You know, I really don't like them! Too much food! Not having many cravings this time. Today I just wanted a couple bites of cheese. Not a whole bunch, but just a couple. I will bring a cheese stick tomorrow and probably won't want it! LOL
Have one more Holiday party this weekend and then a get together next week with a friend. That brings me to something that I have been thinking about but never put down in words yet. Why is it that some people don't want you to succeed? They say they want it, but when you have success it really gets to them. It seems to get them upset and down. The friend I haven't met with yet is one such person. She has a weight problem also, and when she was losing, I cheered her along all the way. Now that it is my turn, it is a whole other story. She acts like I have abandoned her when I won't go out to eat with her or tell her that I have to wait until I am on phase 3 portion of my diet. I have suggested she just come to the house and we exchange gifts, but she said she will wait! With a big SIGH after that statement!! PLEASE!!!! Get a grip!
Have been doing more research on my Hidradenitis and found that they are doing a study with Zinc and 80% in the study had good results with it. So I found the article that was published and I am going to try that dosage and see if it helps with me. I hate this stuff!!! My poor armpits are so scarred from this. I guess my future career of being an armpit model is ruined!!! WAA WAA!!!
Well off to bed!
Be Blessed!
Tracey
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Thursday, January 3, 2008
January 2, 2008 I AM STILL HERE
Just a quick post to let everyone know that I am still out here. Still doing good and will post all the details tomorrow.
Ciao!
Ciao!
Saturday, November 17, 2007
November 17, 2007 Nice Sunny day!
I have lost 1 more lb! Yippee for me. That makes a total of 21 lbs. I am so thankful for this diet and the research and dedication that Dr. S had to solve something that he thought was a problem. Not posting my charts today...as I am at the car wash right now and just don't want to take the time. But will get them back up in my next post.
This week has been so hectic at work.. thought is was a full moon week! Maybe just a big hormonal surge when you have around 50 women working in the same area! LOL Was so nice to be able to put on my headpones and ignore the rest of the office...just get in my own little world. Only have taps on my shoulders when questions needed answers, but didn't have to listen to all the overall whining!! That is what drives me nuts...who cares who looked at who funny! Please women...go up!!! Ok..I will get off that soap box! LOL
Biz wrote in her blog the other day about noticing adding more carbs into diet and the effect of sinusits. I noticed that too earlier this week. I heard this voice calling me....it was a nice warm soft voice. "Tracey...come here...I have something to show you!" Didn't know my head has such a pleasant voice! LOL
Well after getting my crown put on this week, I stopped at a place that had biscuits and gravy. The car took over and went right into the drive thru...then that soft pleasant voice came out of my mouth...next thing I know the worker is handing me one biscuit and gravy! Don't know how that happened! hee hee But it tasted wonderful and hit the spot. But about 3 hours later I could feel my sinuses start to clog up. That can be a symptom for wheat allergies. I started to feel sluggish and brain foggy. I know that is part of my symptoms also when my blood sugars are out of control...but I tested and was 84. So that was not it. My boss has Celiac disease and this is how hers started too. She also gets constipated, joint aches, sinsuses and headaches. But hers is at a stage where it hits her almost immediately. Her mother almost died from it, was in the hospital for over a month, before they got her under control and well enough to be released. But I wouldn't doubt if alot of us have some form of wheat/gluten allergies. This causes internal inflammation. And some of the research that I have done regarding diabetes and people with weight gain and main stream diets don't work on....well they seem to have inflammation issues too. Just makes me kind of wonder.
Yesterday was food day at work, a gal was leaving. I did really good. There was a table of meats and cheeses. I was so proud of myself. Some fruit. Apples with a bit of peanut butter on them. Then about an hour later had to take something to one of the gals and I walked the back way to get to her desk. Well to my surprise there was a table with more food! And what did I see...oh some egg bakes, carmel and chocolate covered popcorn and brownies. Well I was able to resist the popcorn and brownies (they were store bought) but that soft pleasant voice from within..told me to try one of the egg bake things. I chose one. It was really good...the gal took stove top stuffing (cooked) and may a shell inside of the muffin tin and then cracked an egg inside and topped with cheese and bacon. Was really good...but about 45 minutes later...man...my blood sugars really hit me. They didn't go really high, but high enough that I was feeling crappy. Wanted to sleep, brain fog and seemed like I was having pure sugar running in my veins! Hate that feeling. I didn't have my byetta at work..otherwise I could have taken a shot and wouldn't have experienced that. But made me think about how carbs really effect ones body. Feeling like crap for the most of the rest of the day...all for some stuffing? Is it worth it? Will it hurt me to do it once in awhile? All questions to ponder and will probably always be thinking about. Most days I would say no...it isn't worth it. But somedays that sweet small pleasant voice just pops out of nowhere. Like an old friend that you haven't spent time with. You just can't wait to catch up, spend time with them. But at the end of the day you must go home.
This whole process is such a learning experience and some days we take one step foward and others two steps back. But like others of you and I have experienced. There is something different with this journey...seems like are brains are getting reprogrammed too. Maybe because we know this works, we know what to do if we too much of a good/bad thing. I don't know...but my whole mindset has changed with this. I don't feel like I have to test the waters to see how much I can get away with. I know when I am off plan, but like Biz wrote, if it doesn't taste like I thought it should or used to taste, it goes in the trash. Why eat it if the taste is just not there. I guess the one feeling that I can convey today is that...I feel CALM!!! Not lazy, just a nice steady and soothing feeling in my soul. I pray our growth continues on this journey and it deepens and enriches us. That we know who we are and what we need...geez all this from losing weight! WOOHOO!!! Let's enjoy the ride! I am sure it will be a great and adventourus one!!!
My car is ready!! Yippee...nice and clean! Got it detailed for the winter!
Take care everyone and BE BLESSED!!!!
Tracey
This week has been so hectic at work.. thought is was a full moon week! Maybe just a big hormonal surge when you have around 50 women working in the same area! LOL Was so nice to be able to put on my headpones and ignore the rest of the office...just get in my own little world. Only have taps on my shoulders when questions needed answers, but didn't have to listen to all the overall whining!! That is what drives me nuts...who cares who looked at who funny! Please women...go up!!! Ok..I will get off that soap box! LOL
Biz wrote in her blog the other day about noticing adding more carbs into diet and the effect of sinusits. I noticed that too earlier this week. I heard this voice calling me....it was a nice warm soft voice. "Tracey...come here...I have something to show you!" Didn't know my head has such a pleasant voice! LOL
Well after getting my crown put on this week, I stopped at a place that had biscuits and gravy. The car took over and went right into the drive thru...then that soft pleasant voice came out of my mouth...next thing I know the worker is handing me one biscuit and gravy! Don't know how that happened! hee hee But it tasted wonderful and hit the spot. But about 3 hours later I could feel my sinuses start to clog up. That can be a symptom for wheat allergies. I started to feel sluggish and brain foggy. I know that is part of my symptoms also when my blood sugars are out of control...but I tested and was 84. So that was not it. My boss has Celiac disease and this is how hers started too. She also gets constipated, joint aches, sinsuses and headaches. But hers is at a stage where it hits her almost immediately. Her mother almost died from it, was in the hospital for over a month, before they got her under control and well enough to be released. But I wouldn't doubt if alot of us have some form of wheat/gluten allergies. This causes internal inflammation. And some of the research that I have done regarding diabetes and people with weight gain and main stream diets don't work on....well they seem to have inflammation issues too. Just makes me kind of wonder.
Yesterday was food day at work, a gal was leaving. I did really good. There was a table of meats and cheeses. I was so proud of myself. Some fruit. Apples with a bit of peanut butter on them. Then about an hour later had to take something to one of the gals and I walked the back way to get to her desk. Well to my surprise there was a table with more food! And what did I see...oh some egg bakes, carmel and chocolate covered popcorn and brownies. Well I was able to resist the popcorn and brownies (they were store bought) but that soft pleasant voice from within..told me to try one of the egg bake things. I chose one. It was really good...the gal took stove top stuffing (cooked) and may a shell inside of the muffin tin and then cracked an egg inside and topped with cheese and bacon. Was really good...but about 45 minutes later...man...my blood sugars really hit me. They didn't go really high, but high enough that I was feeling crappy. Wanted to sleep, brain fog and seemed like I was having pure sugar running in my veins! Hate that feeling. I didn't have my byetta at work..otherwise I could have taken a shot and wouldn't have experienced that. But made me think about how carbs really effect ones body. Feeling like crap for the most of the rest of the day...all for some stuffing? Is it worth it? Will it hurt me to do it once in awhile? All questions to ponder and will probably always be thinking about. Most days I would say no...it isn't worth it. But somedays that sweet small pleasant voice just pops out of nowhere. Like an old friend that you haven't spent time with. You just can't wait to catch up, spend time with them. But at the end of the day you must go home.
This whole process is such a learning experience and some days we take one step foward and others two steps back. But like others of you and I have experienced. There is something different with this journey...seems like are brains are getting reprogrammed too. Maybe because we know this works, we know what to do if we too much of a good/bad thing. I don't know...but my whole mindset has changed with this. I don't feel like I have to test the waters to see how much I can get away with. I know when I am off plan, but like Biz wrote, if it doesn't taste like I thought it should or used to taste, it goes in the trash. Why eat it if the taste is just not there. I guess the one feeling that I can convey today is that...I feel CALM!!! Not lazy, just a nice steady and soothing feeling in my soul. I pray our growth continues on this journey and it deepens and enriches us. That we know who we are and what we need...geez all this from losing weight! WOOHOO!!! Let's enjoy the ride! I am sure it will be a great and adventourus one!!!
My car is ready!! Yippee...nice and clean! Got it detailed for the winter!
Take care everyone and BE BLESSED!!!!
Tracey
Sunday, November 4, 2007
November 4, 2007
My Weight Chart:
Haven't posted in a little over a week. Just a hectic week...sometimes you just have to deal with crap you don't want too. But that is life...the good with the bad!
But it did get me to thinking about the weight that I am losing. Why am I losing it? Wasn't I happy with it? What are my true goals...have I even truly thought about them? Questions...questions...questions!!!! Is there ever and end to them? With me...probably not! Well I should say...when something resonates with my soul..it is settled. And until then..I am on a search!
A little history on my attempts of weight loss. With my diabetes, I have to be a carb watcher if I want to maintain good blood sugar levels. If you follow the ADA ( American Diabetes Associatons) diet. For most diabetes (type II) you will need more and more meds to control your diabetes. My humble opinion is that is set up that way. The disease associations work with and are funded big time by the pharmacy companies. Alas...lets keep the money rolling in!!! Okay...I better get off that rant...the focus should be on ME! LOL Anyway...my top weight was...drum roll inserted here... 325. I started this at 283. So that is 43 lbs in 4 years! I guess I really take the thought of slow weight loss is best...then you will have a better chance of keeping it off to heart! I guess the saying is true...haven't gained it back! Not saying that I couldn't if I tried, I would just feel like crap with my blood sugars out of whack! Didn't think diabetes could be a blessing in the weight loss category.
One thing that I have noticed is that my body has a 2-3 month span during the year that it will lose weight. For the past 4 years, I have eaten the same diet. I will go through a phase when I lose about 10-15 lbs. Then the rest of the year, I will play with the 5 lbs of going up and down. Do you know how frustrating that can be? I have dealt with it...until it seems like it is hopeless. Increasing exercise, watching my food more closely and nothing happens...gets to where I want to scream! I hate it..but it is my body.
Okay...all that to get to where I am at now. I am working this diet. I do have to deviate a little. But I am comfortable with that hope the Hcg Nazi police won't come after me! LOL I have to do what is right for my body and I will not take on any guilt from anyone, whether it was specially aimed at me or not. Just reading posts on the groups can make me question things. But I am past that and know what I have to do for myself. I am not advocating that you shouldn't stay on the plan that Dr. S states, but he has little advise for diabetics and I know how my body reacts to food. His advice for low blood sugar is to take 2 teaspoons of sugar. Well I spike to high and feel like crap! I instead just eat a handful of peanuts or some kind of nut or a piece of cheese and fight the rest of the hunger cravings until they pass. My blood sugar slowly rises back to normal and I don't feel like crap then. So I may not loose all I could have, but I can't get anal until I get to the point where my diabetes is under control with just food and exercise alone. My body chemistry is what it is and I just keep plugging away at it.
Had to get that down...was it to justify my "cheats"? Today I can say NO!! Last week it would have been a different answer, but I can't diet and have a cloud of guilt hanging over me. Not healthy for me at all! I have also decided that I can't weigh every day on P2. I was getting to frustrated with not seeing the numbers move like everyone else. When i went to weigh in at the clinic, they told me not to weigh everyday on this phase. I will have to on P3, but I am okay with that. I will be weighing to maintain. Something totally different than looking for a loss.
Well I need to get some work done around here and get some meals cooked for the week. So tomorrow I will go over some more thoughts that have been floating around in my mind!
Take care and be Blessed!!!
Tracey
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