I don't know if I have talked much about my status in relationship arena, but I am divorced. Separated in 2004 and divorced was final in May of 2007. Dating at this age, well it is just a pain in the, well you know what! lol The men I have met haven't been my cup of tea. One day the right one will come along and I am not in a rush, but would be nice to have someone of the opposite sex to go do things with. Well Friday night this 48 year old chick had me a 33 year old cowboy!!! Yippee Ki I Yee!!!! We had been chatting for several months and finally decided to meet each other. He lives about an hour away from me and drove down for the evening. We met for a few drinks and then came back to my place for more drinks and conversation. It was a very nice evening. Don't worry, I had a safe call and check in's in place and he was aware of it all. It was a big boost to my ego, let me tell you! That should last for awhile.
Now Saturday I realized that rum must dehydrate you. I could not get enough to drink. Was still making up for it on Sunday and today. I did weigh Saturday morning and was down to 245 lbs. So that is another 2 lbs loss. It seems to be fitting into my own unique pattern that I have established. So for now I will go with the flo and not stress over it!!! Was talking to one of my good friends last night, and was saying how I am still not seeing the changes in the mirror yet. I see some difference, but they are slight in my eyes. This will change and I am keeping myself aware of it. I am starting to get into a lot of clothes that I haven't been able too. I think another 20 lbs and my mind will finally kick in. I think part of it, is my stomach still sticks out, so when that goes down some more, my brain will finally be able to see it. Everyone around me can, so I will believe them, I am not going to agrue! I am taking the compliments with style and grace! hee hee!!!
Glad everyone is hanging in there...remember one day at a time!
Be Blessed!
Monday, February 11, 2008
Thursday, February 7, 2008
February 7, 2008 Almost the end of R3
Well I am back from the dead! I am still on Releana and still moving forward and strong. I just had to take a sabbatical from the computer.
I was at a stall and my body just didn't want to co-operate. I think the scale saw 250 lbs and decided that it was fat and happy sitting right there! I wasn't but it was! I decided that I was going to let nature take it's course and ride it out. I tried a steak day and an egg day, not in a row, and it did nothing. I was having flashbacks of all the other times (not hcg) and I would freeze around 20 lbs. I kept telling myself that i had lost over 30 lbs so I could keep going and my body was just going to have to get it together and join my soul and spirit. I had noticed that I was starting to get frustrated at everyone's losses. A 1lb a day here and there and everywhere!!! My poor scale just stood there. My brain was heading into a not so good of place, so I knew I needed to take a break from the computer. Just needed to ride this one out by myself. I love all of your support and I love sharing in everyones joy, but sometimes you just need to get your own sh*t together! LOL
Well my body did get over its hump, but it took almost 3 weeks. But this time I didn't let myself get to the point of total frustration. I knew it would work, but just had to let this mass of flesh decide to join the rest of me. I think the fat was moving on my body though. This was a time when I got the most compliments at work. Everyone telling me that they could really tell I was losing more! I accepted their compliments and told me body...see now lets get that scale in gear! LOL.
It finally happened on Monday, February 4. I hit 247 lbs!!! I have noticed that I don't lose in a steady stream. My is more like hurdle to hurdle. I go a few days the same and then lose a lb or two, then stay the same for another 7-10 days and then drop 2 -3 lbs. I have planted that in my brain. So if I start whining about not losing, please remind me!
I am really noticing the loss of fat in my body. Especially in my lower abdomen. My stomach still needs help.....lol.....but my body is still responding to the last on last off method of fat placement! Still losing in all areas of my body, I just want more in my stomach. But it is coming off, so I will have to be patient and let it happen on its own accord. Just keep following the Hcg diet and IT WILL COME!!!
I have read on some blogs and in groups comments about the great thing about this is you lose the fat and it re distributes itself. I think this is a YMMV. I think that it really depends on how your body retains the fat in the first place. Like I have said before, I am an apple shape. The majority of my fat is in the stomach and lower abdomen. My skin is starting to get really loose in my lower gut and on the side of my waist. I think my skin is past the point of springing back to life! lol Thank God for plastic surgeons!
Be Blessed!
I was at a stall and my body just didn't want to co-operate. I think the scale saw 250 lbs and decided that it was fat and happy sitting right there! I wasn't but it was! I decided that I was going to let nature take it's course and ride it out. I tried a steak day and an egg day, not in a row, and it did nothing. I was having flashbacks of all the other times (not hcg) and I would freeze around 20 lbs. I kept telling myself that i had lost over 30 lbs so I could keep going and my body was just going to have to get it together and join my soul and spirit. I had noticed that I was starting to get frustrated at everyone's losses. A 1lb a day here and there and everywhere!!! My poor scale just stood there. My brain was heading into a not so good of place, so I knew I needed to take a break from the computer. Just needed to ride this one out by myself. I love all of your support and I love sharing in everyones joy, but sometimes you just need to get your own sh*t together! LOL
Well my body did get over its hump, but it took almost 3 weeks. But this time I didn't let myself get to the point of total frustration. I knew it would work, but just had to let this mass of flesh decide to join the rest of me. I think the fat was moving on my body though. This was a time when I got the most compliments at work. Everyone telling me that they could really tell I was losing more! I accepted their compliments and told me body...see now lets get that scale in gear! LOL.
It finally happened on Monday, February 4. I hit 247 lbs!!! I have noticed that I don't lose in a steady stream. My is more like hurdle to hurdle. I go a few days the same and then lose a lb or two, then stay the same for another 7-10 days and then drop 2 -3 lbs. I have planted that in my brain. So if I start whining about not losing, please remind me!
I am really noticing the loss of fat in my body. Especially in my lower abdomen. My stomach still needs help.....lol.....but my body is still responding to the last on last off method of fat placement! Still losing in all areas of my body, I just want more in my stomach. But it is coming off, so I will have to be patient and let it happen on its own accord. Just keep following the Hcg diet and IT WILL COME!!!
I have read on some blogs and in groups comments about the great thing about this is you lose the fat and it re distributes itself. I think this is a YMMV. I think that it really depends on how your body retains the fat in the first place. Like I have said before, I am an apple shape. The majority of my fat is in the stomach and lower abdomen. My skin is starting to get really loose in my lower gut and on the side of my waist. I think my skin is past the point of springing back to life! lol Thank God for plastic surgeons!
Be Blessed!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
January 9, 2008 Hunger starting to fade
Well I have been peeing like a race horse the past two days. Do race horses really pee alot? H'mmmm. Have to do some research on that!
Hunger is getting better. Slow but sure. I brought some mushroom broth today, that seems to help some. Still haven't measured from last time...dang it!
I have to confess and come clean...I need some kind of 12 step support group. I am a prograstinator!!! That is one of the things I am trying to work on for 2008. So hopefully I will lose more weight this year and junk from the house! lol
Well I need to get to bed...really tired today.
Be Blessed!
Hunger is getting better. Slow but sure. I brought some mushroom broth today, that seems to help some. Still haven't measured from last time...dang it!
I have to confess and come clean...I need some kind of 12 step support group. I am a prograstinator!!! That is one of the things I am trying to work on for 2008. So hopefully I will lose more weight this year and junk from the house! lol
Well I need to get to bed...really tired today.
Be Blessed!
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
January 7, 2008 Day 1 R3P2
Well I am starting my third round today. Starting weight at 251, so held my own for a week. That was good. Played with my blog a bit. Finally figured out how to get the code for the virtual model. Had it done for 2 months but couldn't figure out how to get it on my page.
Since I didn't load this time, only did P3 for a week, I was more hungry today. Will take an extra apple tomorrow. Seems I level out at night time. Just in the mid morning it really hit me today. Tomorrow night I will make some soup to take to help me feel full. Was going to do it tonight, but Football was one. So got engrossed in that. Geaux Tigers!!! By Wednesday or Thursday I will really have the hcg in my system, so the hunger will subside.
Had my last party this past Saturday. Everyone was surprised and happy about the weight I have lost so far. Did pretty good, did have some starches, but limited. A roll and two bites of the baked beans I made. Had to taste those! Wanted to make sure I didn't poison anyone!
Will got out with my one friend on Thursday night. Will go somewhere where I can have a steak and substitute the potato for some broccoli. But then that will be over with. Then will not have to watch her get moody because I wont eat off protocol. I don't harass her because she orders all her food without any seasonings! Yuck! LOL
Well time for bed and the X-files!
Be Blessed!
Tracey
Since I didn't load this time, only did P3 for a week, I was more hungry today. Will take an extra apple tomorrow. Seems I level out at night time. Just in the mid morning it really hit me today. Tomorrow night I will make some soup to take to help me feel full. Was going to do it tonight, but Football was one. So got engrossed in that. Geaux Tigers!!! By Wednesday or Thursday I will really have the hcg in my system, so the hunger will subside.
Had my last party this past Saturday. Everyone was surprised and happy about the weight I have lost so far. Did pretty good, did have some starches, but limited. A roll and two bites of the baked beans I made. Had to taste those! Wanted to make sure I didn't poison anyone!
Will got out with my one friend on Thursday night. Will go somewhere where I can have a steak and substitute the potato for some broccoli. But then that will be over with. Then will not have to watch her get moody because I wont eat off protocol. I don't harass her because she orders all her food without any seasonings! Yuck! LOL
Well time for bed and the X-files!
Be Blessed!
Tracey
Thursday, January 3, 2008
January 3, 2008 Doing Good
Well I had my weigh in on 12/31 and I lost a total of 14 lbs this round. I think that was wonderful with Christmas in there. So I ended up 251!!! Can you say TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY ONE LBS!!!! I know some people will look at that number and think...Whoa! That's a lot!!! I can remember back in the day when my scale hit that number. I swore I would never let the scale get higher than that! Geez, we can fool ourselves can't we! But I never thought I would look at 251 fondly! Funny how a different perspective makes things look. I will take my measurements this weekend. I could do it now, but I am just plain bushed. Work has been really stressful, but I think that I am just doing it to myself. I get to a point where I just have to get rid of my stacks! They are really bugging me. So I am working on those now.
I am doing phase 3 for the rest of this week and will be back to phase 2 on Sunday or Monday. Not going to take the whole phase 3 this time. So I won't do any load days. You know, I really don't like them! Too much food! Not having many cravings this time. Today I just wanted a couple bites of cheese. Not a whole bunch, but just a couple. I will bring a cheese stick tomorrow and probably won't want it! LOL
Have one more Holiday party this weekend and then a get together next week with a friend. That brings me to something that I have been thinking about but never put down in words yet. Why is it that some people don't want you to succeed? They say they want it, but when you have success it really gets to them. It seems to get them upset and down. The friend I haven't met with yet is one such person. She has a weight problem also, and when she was losing, I cheered her along all the way. Now that it is my turn, it is a whole other story. She acts like I have abandoned her when I won't go out to eat with her or tell her that I have to wait until I am on phase 3 portion of my diet. I have suggested she just come to the house and we exchange gifts, but she said she will wait! With a big SIGH after that statement!! PLEASE!!!! Get a grip!
Have been doing more research on my Hidradenitis and found that they are doing a study with Zinc and 80% in the study had good results with it. So I found the article that was published and I am going to try that dosage and see if it helps with me. I hate this stuff!!! My poor armpits are so scarred from this. I guess my future career of being an armpit model is ruined!!! WAA WAA!!!
Well off to bed!
Be Blessed!
Tracey
I am doing phase 3 for the rest of this week and will be back to phase 2 on Sunday or Monday. Not going to take the whole phase 3 this time. So I won't do any load days. You know, I really don't like them! Too much food! Not having many cravings this time. Today I just wanted a couple bites of cheese. Not a whole bunch, but just a couple. I will bring a cheese stick tomorrow and probably won't want it! LOL
Have one more Holiday party this weekend and then a get together next week with a friend. That brings me to something that I have been thinking about but never put down in words yet. Why is it that some people don't want you to succeed? They say they want it, but when you have success it really gets to them. It seems to get them upset and down. The friend I haven't met with yet is one such person. She has a weight problem also, and when she was losing, I cheered her along all the way. Now that it is my turn, it is a whole other story. She acts like I have abandoned her when I won't go out to eat with her or tell her that I have to wait until I am on phase 3 portion of my diet. I have suggested she just come to the house and we exchange gifts, but she said she will wait! With a big SIGH after that statement!! PLEASE!!!! Get a grip!
Have been doing more research on my Hidradenitis and found that they are doing a study with Zinc and 80% in the study had good results with it. So I found the article that was published and I am going to try that dosage and see if it helps with me. I hate this stuff!!! My poor armpits are so scarred from this. I guess my future career of being an armpit model is ruined!!! WAA WAA!!!
Well off to bed!
Be Blessed!
Tracey
January 2, 2008 I AM STILL HERE
Just a quick post to let everyone know that I am still out here. Still doing good and will post all the details tomorrow.
Ciao!
Ciao!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
December 18, 2007 1.5 lb or 3.5 lbs...you decide!
Had my appointment with the clinic this morning. On my scale I think it was 257 (not digital). So that would have left me with a 1.5 loss from 258.5. I got on the clinic scale and it also showed 257 , but they deduct 2 lbs for clothes. So they have me down for 255. So I think a poll should be done. Should I take the 255 and count the 2 extra pounds? LOL Jonesing for some extra lbs here! LOL
They couldn't think if they had any other diabetics on the Releana. They had a couple on the optifast diet....YUCK! And I got the talk again about not weighing so much, if not seeing the scale move every morning gets depressing. They have a few that really freak out with the scale, so they only weigh in there. I don't think I could go 2 weeks without weighing. Got my lipo fat reducing shot. It is a B12 shot mixed with some fat releasing herbs and/or amino acids in it. I will have to look for that paperwork and see what the other ingredients are. I asked about the reason why they have us use 5-6 oz of protein per meal and not the 3.5 oz. They were having problems when they first started with patients not feeling well, being dizzy and weak, etc. So they called up Releana and they adviced to increase. Said they were having some of the same issues and advised their patients to increase and it didn't seem to effect the weight loss. Now I don't know how scientific the decision was to come up with this reasoning. But I am still losing, so I think I will stay on the 5 oz of protein. And when measuring on a scale, it is only two more extra bites.
So what have I learned here? That if I stick with the plan, the weight has to come off. Might not come off when I want it, but it will come off. Do I have to like it that I don't have nice smooth weight losses like some people? No I don't, but I have to accept it. And accepting it is not settling. Just have to take it as it is. This is how my body is working right now. My body has shown a pattern during both cycles of P2. So if I start to whimper and throw another temper tantrum in R3, you all have my permission to REMIND me that I have been down this road before. I will make it past all the detours and bumps in the road and get to my destination. Deal?
When I look in the mirror I still see this big round gut. But I do notice the other parts of my body that has slimmed down. I can now scratch the middle of my back..matter of fact, all over it! Haven't been able to do that in awhile. And when I am bending over in a chair, my tummy is not so much in the way now. I am getting my lap back. Haven't seen that in ages! I have been losing in all areas, but seems my gut has a ways to go. If I could figure out how to post the pictures, I would. I am going to have to work on that one. But I think my losing of fat is going on a cycle of LILO (cost accounting terms) Last in, last out! When I am down to goal, my measurements will probably be 38-36-38. Right now it is 50-56-55. Can you say APPLE! And then I noticed on Biz's measurements, my thighs are an inch smaller than her last measurement. So can you now say APPLE on a stick! LOL But all that to say this, I went to get my hair cut tonight. I just started this diet when I got my last haircut. My stylist, David, told me he almost didn't recognize me. I had to go to the bathroom when I got there and he was working on another client. He said he saw a woman go to the bathroom, then it hit him that it was me. So that boosted my ego a bit! Woohoo!!!! So one day soon, I will look in the mirror and notice my gut isn't so big! It will come and I look forward to that day!
Thanks everyone for your comments, they mean so much to me!
Be Blessed!
Tracey
They couldn't think if they had any other diabetics on the Releana. They had a couple on the optifast diet....YUCK! And I got the talk again about not weighing so much, if not seeing the scale move every morning gets depressing. They have a few that really freak out with the scale, so they only weigh in there. I don't think I could go 2 weeks without weighing. Got my lipo fat reducing shot. It is a B12 shot mixed with some fat releasing herbs and/or amino acids in it. I will have to look for that paperwork and see what the other ingredients are. I asked about the reason why they have us use 5-6 oz of protein per meal and not the 3.5 oz. They were having problems when they first started with patients not feeling well, being dizzy and weak, etc. So they called up Releana and they adviced to increase. Said they were having some of the same issues and advised their patients to increase and it didn't seem to effect the weight loss. Now I don't know how scientific the decision was to come up with this reasoning. But I am still losing, so I think I will stay on the 5 oz of protein. And when measuring on a scale, it is only two more extra bites.
So what have I learned here? That if I stick with the plan, the weight has to come off. Might not come off when I want it, but it will come off. Do I have to like it that I don't have nice smooth weight losses like some people? No I don't, but I have to accept it. And accepting it is not settling. Just have to take it as it is. This is how my body is working right now. My body has shown a pattern during both cycles of P2. So if I start to whimper and throw another temper tantrum in R3, you all have my permission to REMIND me that I have been down this road before. I will make it past all the detours and bumps in the road and get to my destination. Deal?
When I look in the mirror I still see this big round gut. But I do notice the other parts of my body that has slimmed down. I can now scratch the middle of my back..matter of fact, all over it! Haven't been able to do that in awhile. And when I am bending over in a chair, my tummy is not so much in the way now. I am getting my lap back. Haven't seen that in ages! I have been losing in all areas, but seems my gut has a ways to go. If I could figure out how to post the pictures, I would. I am going to have to work on that one. But I think my losing of fat is going on a cycle of LILO (cost accounting terms) Last in, last out! When I am down to goal, my measurements will probably be 38-36-38. Right now it is 50-56-55. Can you say APPLE! And then I noticed on Biz's measurements, my thighs are an inch smaller than her last measurement. So can you now say APPLE on a stick! LOL But all that to say this, I went to get my hair cut tonight. I just started this diet when I got my last haircut. My stylist, David, told me he almost didn't recognize me. I had to go to the bathroom when I got there and he was working on another client. He said he saw a woman go to the bathroom, then it hit him that it was me. So that boosted my ego a bit! Woohoo!!!! So one day soon, I will look in the mirror and notice my gut isn't so big! It will come and I look forward to that day!
Thanks everyone for your comments, they mean so much to me!
Be Blessed!
Tracey
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